Turn up your volume and listen to

our RJ's beautiful music!!!

The background music is one of the hundreds

 of songs that RJ wrote, composed,

mixed, mastered & produced.

It is titled: "West Coast Thang"

Welcome to RJ's website

you can also visit him at...

MYSPACE SITE

LAST-MEMORIES SITE

Our son is dead because of

Mack Creamer & Jarren Allen,

nothing but sorry little punks!

 

                       
   R.J.
I wish I could hear you playing your guitar,
I wish I could hear you playing your piano,
I wish I could hear you playing your drums,
I wish you were in your studio,
creating and mastering all those great beats.

I know you are playing beautiful music
for all the angels in Heaven.
For they know how much you
loved to make music. 

    To Know Him Was to Love Him


RJ loved to walk on the beach at night.
RJ, I miss walking on the beach at night with you.
Every time I walk on the beach, I can feel you with me.
 
RJ & dad flying their kite at the beach, RJ truly loved
doing this. He, like his mom loved the beach and the ocean.
It was always our favorite place to go and get away.

                  

I am Honored to be Your Mother

No one knew you the way your daddy, your brother and I knew you. You were a very gifted, unique, talented, intellectual, compassionate person. I will never forget the way you explained the angelic realm and how we as human beings were not allowed by God to peek beyond the veil into the spiritual realm, because in our earthly bodies we do not have the mental capacity or ability to grasp and understand what is beyond this earthly plane. Now your veil has been lifted and you are seeing all the majestic beauty of Heaven. I will never forget how you explained the mysteries of the spirit realm and so many other things that you educated me about, like the photon light…..I had never heard of the photon light until you introduced me to it. You educated me on so many things that I had never even heard of. Your wisdom was far beyond your years. I still have the timeline of the Bible that you created from the many times you read the Bible. You even explained things of the Bible that others didn’t understand. You taught us so much in the short time you were here. But the wisdom that you had, was a mystery that can’t be explained….I only know that it was a gift given to you by our Lord to complete your short mission here on earth. Your wisdom seemed like that of the ancient prophets and there were some things that you did predict to your daddy and me. I only know that in your true passion for the Lord and the reason and way He made us and His Earth, you were always infatuated with finding the answers to all the mysteries that have intrigued the minds of humans for centuries. You had some of the answers that men have so long searched for. I can only believe that God spoke to you and shared some of these mysteries with you, that is the only explanation I can find for all the wisdom you had. It wasn’t taught to you by any human, it was a gift that only God could provide. I don’t know why you had the answers to so many questions but I know the one and only place you could have gotten them. I have not seen that place yet, but I know when my time comes to see beyond that great veil that divides the earthly plane from the spiritual realm that you will be there with your arms ready to hug me and I will hear those words that I miss and long to hear so much again…..”I love you mama”. That is when we will be together again and what a glorious day in Heaven that will be, when I get to be reunited with my first born child and see that face and hear that voice that I never knew I could miss so much every moment of every day. All I can say R.J., is that I would have rather known you and loved you as much as I did and suffered each day over the loss of you like I have, than to never have known you at all. The love you gave me for 18 years is well worth all the suffering I am going through and will continue to go through for the rest of my life without you. But I would suffer your loss for 10,000 years just to know all the love you gave so freely for 18 years. You had such a deep love in your heart for your family and your TRUE friends. You held such a true and compassionate love, some people on this earth will never know such love. That love that you carried can only come from Heaven and Heaven alone. There are so many lost souls on this earth, they will never in a lifetime experience the kind of love that you gave and that you held, and that IS a gift from God alone. I just want to thank you for the so many gifts you gave me, the so many things you taught me and the glorious love in your heart that you gave me. I can honestly say that I am honored to be your mother. I would not trade it for anything in the world, because in the short 18 years that I had you, you gave me things that others will never know, and could never conceive, and may never even receive. I have always been proud of you and I still am. There are many secrets we hold that you shared with us, and after you died, it was then that I realized the importance of these secrets. Thank you for everything you gave and shared in my life. 
I long for the day I will see you again. 

I will always love you R.J.

Rest in Peace My Dear Sweet Child



 



The following poem was read by the Reverend

during the eulogy at RJ's funeral: 

For All Parents

I’ll lend you for a little time
a child of mine, He said.
For you to love while he lives,
and mourn when he is dead.
It may be six of seven years,
or twenty-two or three.
But will you , till I call him back,
take care of him for me?
He’ll bring his charms to gladden you ,
and shall his stay be brief,
You’ll have his lovely memories
as solace for you grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I’ve looked the wide world over
in my search for teachers true
And from the throngs that crowd life’s lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give him all your love,
nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate me when I come to call,
to take him back again?
I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done."
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
the risk of grief we’ll run.
We’ll shelter him with tenderness,
we’ll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we’ve known,
will ever grateful stay.
But shall the angels call for him
much sooner than we planned,
We’ll brave the bitter grief that comes,
and try to understand.

RJ at age 13 wearing his
crazy jester's hat.

Balloon release at RJ's grave on his Birthday
21 balloons for his 21st Birthday

 

 
RJ and Family~10 days before RJ was murdered

 

 

Left to right~Brother Jake, Kathleen (family friend), Daddy, Mama, and RJ (next to mama of course)





 
This is RJ & little brother Jake with RJ's very best friends
Jerrod & Justin Newman that he grew up with since
he was 4 years old. This picture was taken 4 days
after RJ's 14th birthday in 2000.
Jerrod & Justin were pall bearers at RJ's funeral. 
They carried their best friend to his final resting place.


Missing You R.J. / Jerrod Newman (Best Friend )

When I'm riding by myself  I look over, expecting to see you, but you're not there. When my phone rings I expect you to be on the line, but you're not there. But in my heart I know you're there; I just can't see you. I feel you every time I lay my hands on a musical instrument and I know you're there to guide me. You taught me the meaning of perseverance; you never would tell me exactly, you would make me figure it out just like you had to. I miss all the times we spent together. We had so much fun together it was like every day was a holiday. Please be with my family, especially my baby Audrey as she grows. It's been hard for everyone that knew you, especially your parents, but I know you're watching over them as well. Man O' Man I wish you were still here with us, but I'll see you on the better side and honestly I feel like you went out at the right time, because this world is getting worse and worse everyday. No one believes in being good honest people anymore. 
But if I knew one good and honest person in my lifetime it was you. 
I love you man.











Below is the flyers we used
during our search for RJ.








 



Thank you God for blessing us with RJ
he was our little piece of Heaven on earth
for 18 years and 5 weeks








My sweet baby R.J.








PROVERBS 22:6

Train up a child in the way he should go:

and when he is old, he will not depart from it.



  
Dear R.J.,

I just want you to know that you were the best son 
that anyone could ever have. 
 
I feel that I was truly blessed to have you in my life. 
You never got into trouble and you always stood up for 
what you knew was right.  

You never forgot the morals and values you were 
raised with, for that I will be forever grateful. 
 
You always knew right from wrong and you didn't go astray,  
that gives mecomfort because I know where you are.

 You always made me proud!!! 

I miss you so much, and I love you more than life and I always will.

Play your guitar in Heaven while you wait for me there.  

I love you baby!!!

Love, Mama


I have already seen Heaven.....

every time I looked into RJ's eyes
 

     
Us at Disney World in 1999

We had so much fun!!

 

  
 

I John 3:15

Whoever hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has
eternal life abiding in him.

 

 

 

You can read my impact
 
statement on the timeline page

We love you RJ

and we always play your music!!!!

Keep chasing your dreams baby.....

now you can catch them.